(: Emily <3
2013-02-20 15:10:12 UTC
I speak weird. I struggle with speaking sometime and I regularly mispronounce words I know or stumble in my speech.. I'm ok with people I know but I still make the mistakes regularly but if I'm meeting someone new it's allot worse.
My teacher went over dyslexic and mentioned it was on the autism scale..
I looked it up and it's struck a few chords with me.. I have always been kind of socially awkward, I seem to scare people away and I get far too excited talking about a topic I enjoy or like. I raise my voice without realising it and I nerve really made close friends in school. I prefer books to people..
I have what I though may be OCD with routines but I will routine everything.. I mean everything. If we are going out I will plan days in advance what time I will get up, when I will get ready by elc.. I HAVE to be up a hour before I leave fro school end of. If I'm not I get extremely stressed even though I have plenty of time but it freaks me out. If something doesn't go to plan like someone candling last Minuit or I miss a bus or such I will get extremely upset and just enter some sort of depression...
I've never really grown up. I mean I take responceability ok, I own a car a have a job and its fine but I'm 19 and I have never been to a party or do I have any interest to do so. I stick to my routine or things I'm familiar with. I can have a drinkif I'm having a meal but if I go out I'm completely out of my comfort zone with perplexing new things environment.. I get kinda upset knowing I'm so strange about it and I'm a 'killjoy' to friends..
I'm really clumsy, I trip my feet alot and I have rediculously bad hand eye coordination.. Sports? No way..
I've never been good at many subjects unless its art. But I think that's my dyslexica apparent it makes people usually more creative?
When I was younger apparently I got into routine and stuck well but if I was ever taken out of it I was a tough baby/toddler..
Should I see a doctor about this..? Or am I just being stupid..